My Weight Loss Journey Starts Here….Again!
This is really heard for me…I don’t like to look imperfect. I like to look the best I can in other peoples’ eyes. I think this is one reason that I liked losing all that weight, all 65lbs of blubber within 6 months. It was very noticeable. I got so many compliments. I was so successful at this that my weight loss business was born. My life had truly been transformed. I was higher than a kite. I felt better than best. Nothing could have brought me down. I was running races. I was doing triathlons. I had a thriving business. I had a wonderful family that supported me. Plus I was in a size 4-6 pants. Who wouldn’t be happy?
Well, when there is a ying there’s a yang. And I found my yang. I had just run my first Half Ironman triathlon. This race consisted of a 2km lake swim, taking me about 45 minutes. It is followed by a 96km or 57 mile bike ride, up into the mountains, very hilly roads. This is approx a 4 hour bike ride. The last leg is a half marathon, 21.1 km or 13 mile run. The whole race took me over 7 hours due to some bike problems on the course. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I trained long and hard for it. After the race though, I was onto my next race training. I had never run a full marathon, 26 miles or 42.2km.
I had a friend that did the half ironman with me. I call her a gazelle. She has been running marathons for over 10 years. She is always travelling somewhere for a run. She is an incredible athlete. A few days after the race I was talking to her and she was telling me what she was doing for her training. She was running, biking, swimming only days after the half ironman. I was still recovering. After I heard what she was doing I felt like I was being lazy so off I went. I started running and running long distances, training for my first marathon that I would be running in 8 weeks. I pushed it hard and fast.
I was in a 10km race 2 weeks after the half ironman. About half way through I felt my hamstring start to tear. Yikes! It was excruciating. I kept going though. By the end of the race I was in pretty bad shape. I was still running though! As soon as I got back home, a few days later, I started aggressive treatment to heal my leg. My physiotherapist put me off all exercise and training indefinitely. He told me that I would not be running my marathon 8 weeks later. I couldn’t believe how this made me feel. I was on the verge of tears, even a few snuck out! I was devastated. I did everything I could to heal my leg – acupuncture, physio, special exercises, sports therapy, massage, heat, cold, stretching. You name it, I did it.
Not only did i do all I could, but I started to eat. And eat. And eat. I felt so sorry for myself. “What’s the point?” I thought to myself. I’m out of all races for the rest of the season so I might as well do something I like. And that was to eat. Food was such a comfort to me. Trust me, food and I became tight friends over the next few months. It was a love hate relationship. I didn’t want to eat anymore but I couldn’t resist either. I felt like a drug addict. I could stop for a few days and soon I was hard at it again. Actually a few days is a lie. I could barley last a few hours with the next hit! It was a very sad situation. A few months later and 20 or so pounds later I was able to start exercising again. It was pathetic. I was so out of shape. I didn’t have my drive back. My habit was out the window. Although I was back exercising, somewhat, I didn’t stop gaining. That’s because I couldn’t stop eating. My mind was in a bad, bad place. Around Christmas time I was almost at rock bottom. I knew I needed to do something or I will have gained all my weight back and lost my business.
This is the reason I am writing this book. I want to show you, just because I am health coach, been in really great shape (and not that long ago!) and know all the right things to do, if your mind is in the wrong place it can shatter you and bring you to your knees.
This book is about my weight loss journey from fat to fit to fat again to back to fit again. I will coach myself and get me back to where I need to be; feeling happy, fit and successful. Please join me in my journey and you can be a success as well.
Over the next 90 days you will see the successes and the follies of my weight loss journey. I will be completely transparent to you. You will see the good, the bad and the ugly. No matter how difficult this is for me to put all of me out there, it is something I am obliged to do.